My Gal

My princess gal,how i wish she could recover from illness...
But i truly understand that she is old enough to come to an end in her life.
It's been almost 8 years she had accompany me to walk through every hard patch and faced every waves that strike on me.
From very old-looking gal when she first time entered my life,transform into gorgeous baby gal,and now turned into old and sick princess gal.
Although she didn't make any sound,but from her eyes,i can feel that she is suffering and feeling unwell.However,her eyes shows reliefs whenever i touch her...
She loses her ability to run and see,her body system started to lose control...
God...please let her leave in peace when the day comes,and send her to my grandpa side,so that they could be each other's companion.Take care of my grandpa,and my grandpa can continue to shower her with lots of love...

24/08/2010

It's half past 6pm,dragged myself out from my bed because it's the time to hunt for food although i did not feel any hunger at all,but i am sure my body need something to consume,no way i can let my body become weak, nobody can take care of me but myself...I've been carrying my recycle bag heading down to the shop beside the condo. Mixed rice always is the first choice i choose as my dinner, it's cheaper and faster than fastfood outlets. Then headed to Carrefour to buy some junk food in case i am craving for them when i watch the drama series. Cloud9 chocolate bars, cheezels biskitz and a full cream milk, nothing much to buy, because i've been thinking to ask mom buy more for me when i back to home, haha...such a brilliant idea to save up my money.
Ok...it's done...carrying my not so heavy recycle bag,walked back to my condo. Today was quite a nice weather though, i can feel the wind "kissing" my face...But then suddenly the smell of smoking and the smoke from the cars passing by approached me, eww...
Yea right...dinner with my lappy again...and having those not so tasty dinner. Gosh...miss home dishes.

Praying hard...

Hope everything goes as what i've planned... (*crossing my fingers and pray....)

I just wanted LIVE my life and rock my world.Thanks God.

creating her own universe

After being a fool for quite a long period, done countless of stupid things and dropped a river of tears, she started to understand, this is her life and nobody owes her, she is not suppose to expect others will give her happiness, instead, she need to create happiness by herself. She is the one who able to create her own universe.
Sometimes, life is undeniably harsh. But she truly believes that experiencing is the best way to make herself realize and bear in mind what are the things she should do and what she shouldn't do.
She started to realize, she already try her best and gave everything she could for some one who doesn't seems to appreciate everything she did for him. Instead of appreciating others, she thinks it's time she should appreciate herself. She had done enough...
There's a long long journey awaiting her to explore and do anything she wanted to...it's time to stand on her own feet and face the wonderful world ahead of her. She not live for some one, but she live for herself, creating her own universe, an universe which is full of colours and flowers, birds flying above the sky, ground covers with green grass...doesn't matter anymore if she walks alone.

my life of studying

July 2010- December 2010, this will be the last semester i am studying in University Malaya. Next semester will be my internship, which is the final semester for my 3 years course in Business Administration. My life study in UM is not as exciting as i expected when i had been inform by Jo Ann that i managed to enter UM in 2008. In university,i started to become more low profile,unlike the days i was in secondary. Now i started to understand the meaning people tends to pursue more stable life when they grown up.

I am lucky that i gained 2 good friends in UM, they also have quite similar of mindset and perspective with me ~ low profile. We are consider as very rare species of Homo sapien (human being) in UM, because we are surrounding by lots of "kiasu" students. Honestly, i have no idea how we could survive through these years.

However, this semester, i feel stress as the internship matter is approaching me. What irritates me is which company i should go for, from which company i could learn more, which company can provide me more working experiences...

As usual, i go back home very frequently although i am now in the third year of studying. In KL, the only entertainment for me is spending money, which is why i seldom go out. Home is the only place that i can seek for comfort and peace. I don't even need to go out to get entertainment in Malacca, because there are 2 dogs in my house who are my entertainers. At least when i see them, i know i am not facing the world alone, they are always there waving their tails to me. =)