diver in the making

Kinda sick of all the unpleasurable human being behaviors, the noise, the wars, rumours...that circulating on the land. 
Time to escape from the mean world, even just for a while. 
I want to dive deeper to find a peace of mind under the sea while enjoying the beauty of the underworld.

Separation

People comes, people goes.

They become part of your life without even realizing it until you feel you're in the state of unwillingness and sadness they cause you when they are leaving out of your life.

Too bad, that's the way of life, you must know how to deal with it, no exception.

It's been so long I didn't drop my tears, but tears were rolling down from my cheek when you said you probably leaving.

Dropping tears is a sign of weakness, especially in front of family and friends.

I am just way too weak in dealing with separation because fear is hunting me, this could be affected by experiences.

I started choose to not being too close with anyone because it hurts so much when your dearest telling you he/she is going to leave you.

Nobody can ask someone to stay just because he/she can't handle separation, it is such a selfish and childish action.

Everyone stand a right in chasing their own star, sailing in their own direction and choose their own road.

Even though it might be hard for me, but I will definitely support my close ones to leave me for their own good. They deserve something better than this, no doubt.

That is how I care and love my close ones. Doesn't matter if in the end left myself alone, because somehow I know I need to move forward and live my life to the fullest.

i need excitements and achievements

Every Monday to Saturday, my pinkish cellphone has a duty to play the Canon in D sharp 7am,which is a classical music played by Johann Pachelbel. However, 7am is not the time for me to wake up and get out from my bed. My wake up time is on 7.30am. During that half an hour, I am in half awake and half asleep condition, forgive me, I just wish I could stick to my bed even just for few more seconds...Wake up, get prepare then go downstairs...There he is, waving his tail and greeting me. How nice if he could speak and say "good morning" to me every morning. Don't you think it would be great if your dearest could greets you once you wake up in the morning? Just a simple greeting will make your day...=) 

Come home at 6pm which indicates that it's time to work as nanny, bring Girl and Hiro out for a walk, sometimes shower for them. Then dinner, movies and.....sleep.

Yea...that's my routine daily life after started my internship, no excitement but boredom. Kinda scary whenever i think of living a life like this until my retirement. Life is too short, I need excitements and achievements to spice up my life.

Used to think of stay at home after graduated, but somehow I changed my mind. The reasons? Could be due to privacy, career or some personal problems. Sorry mom, I am way too young to just hang in here...It's time to sail and stand on my own feet, try to explore as much things as possible. Anyhow, one thing for sure, I am a home person. =)