never live to hate

It was clear that he already walk out from her life
Without looking back at her, he walked thousands miles ahead of her
While she still stand on the same place
Picking up million pieces of the broken heart that fell all over the place, and trying to stick it back as a whole
She reluctant to move any further as she worry he will find her nowhere if he turn back and look for her
Even if she manage to fix every pieces of the broken heart, she know that the once broken heart will be much more easily to be break down if she get hurt
She truly fear that day will come again
She was glad that one of her dearest manage to drag her out from the madness
From that person, she now can really understand what's in a guy's mind of our age.
What they're wanted is a kind of freedom, and sadly, not a commitment
She decided to sail, without any regrets and burdens
She wanted to sail side by side with that person, although they're heading to different destination
At least they can save each other when big waves approaches
Life is actually not that bad though...
People should be live to concern each other, support each other, provide them warms whenever they're get cold
One should never live to hate, as the person who hate and the person been hated get hurt at the same time, it's lose-lose situation, and life will be harsh...

Good Luck Jaz...

I have such a healthy lifestyle in kl. Watching dramas and reading books seems to be my entertainments here which help me to spend through my leisure time. Talking about leisure time, Im actually do not have that much of time to spend for my entertainment, as when it comes to the end of the semester, assignments and projects started to burden me. But, I am still one the average student who start to do her work when the due date is around the corner.
My study of life is going to an end, very soon... Feel nervous and excited at the same time- nervous because I think that I am still not well prepared; excited because I am putting half of my feet to the next stage of life. It's time to join the work force and contribute to my family.
I have tonnes of dreams, which I wish I could achieve. As what I'd heard, everything starts from a dream. Doesn't matter if I walk alone through all the stages of life, because I know that I still have my family who will give me a full support in doing anything. Definitely it would be great if have someone who has in common with me to walk with me through the life. But, not now...
I had a lil' achievement few days back, and it was great that I received lots of compliments from others. But somehow, deep down in my heart...
I am trying so hard just to prove that even if I do not have the opportunity to study abroad like others, I am still able to reach a destination just like them, or even better destination. I appreciate everything I have now, I truly believe success is strongly depends on our own efforts. My family has supported me enough, and it's time for me to stand on my own feet. Love my family so much...(* including gal and hiro)

Nightmare

I was forcing myself get up from the bed this morning to attend early class. Can't really sleep well last night as something disturbed my good night sleep ~ Nightmare...
Suddenly I was trapped in a big house with huge staircases, alone...And it was during midnight, every corner of in the house is as dark as the night sky. I don't really understand why, the first alert comes to my mind was shut all the doors and windows tightly. So i was rushing through each floor to check on the windows and the doors as somehow I was so afraid of someone might come in.
By the time I rushed to the ground floor to check on the door lock, someone tried to twist the door lock with quite a huge force as the door had been locked. I was moving backward slowly...Then I was awake, such a relieve...
Bad dreams are hunting me this few days, all I ever wish is God can granted me some sweet dreams instead of bad dreams...